My thoughts, words and life

2006-12-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

Clubbing's dead?

2006-12-05T10:53:00.000+08:00

The clubbing scene in genting is sooooo dead. I check out the safari disco yesterday evening. And check this, there was only a miserable live band playing. No one , and I mean NO ONE was dancing at all. What kind of a club is this man?! Seriously, they should expand the clubbing scene over here. At least open one or two NORMAL clubs.

Anyway, I'm going back to the busy world aka S'pore today. I'm gonna miss this place, as I always do when I leave it. It's a nostalgic thing, since I've been holidaying at genting since I was really young.

Speaking of nostalgia, CHRISTMAS is round the corner! My favourite festival of the year! Wooo! I can't wait!

Food's good!

2006-12-04T08:39:00.000+08:00

Blogging at an unearthly hour of 8.30am (applicable during school holidays) at genting's cybercafe. Since it's 24 hours I was like 'what the heck! I'll just wake up early!' After all, i so can't survive without technology man. Typing this while I've got my ipod on playing The Saddest Song by The Ataris (don't ask me why. it just came on)

Trip's pretty good so far. Haven't seen anyone I know though, which is something different cause I always run into at least one familliar face over here.

I had ice-cream yesterday, and really really swell ice-cream at that. Lemon Mousse Cheesecake and Chocolate Mousse Royale. Mmmm, sweet surrender!

Oh, I think people love the number 10 a lot over here, cause almost everything's on 10% off! I'm gonna buy some stuff!

One thing I haven't done yet in the trip is to take pictures! Apart from a few snapshots in the room earlier, I haven't had much of a date with my cam yet.. Grr. Must remember.

Oh did I mention, the food over here rocks! Especially the stone grilled fare at Hot Rock located at the food court in First World Hotel. Yes! Cheer steph! We're talking about food! xD Well don't blame me, we don't see much stone grilled food in S'pore, except for two restaurants in katong and clarke quay. Moreover, it's pretty cheap. Around 6 bucks for a complete meal! Wooo!

All this talk about food is making me hungry! I'll be having brunch with my brother in a while. Haha. Till then, I'm gonna think about all the good food I can think of. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

P.S: Steph, you are dearly missed. Dammit, wish you were here. Hope everything's fine on your side.

Lots to say!

2006-12-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

I'm in GENTING now! First time this year if I've recalled correctly. And updating my blog to pass time at the cybercafe. Well, I won't have much time left very soon, once diploma lessons start and school re-opens...

I've been clubbing every now and then these days, and let me tel you, it's one heck of a way to relieve stress! You just go in and dance from the later part of dusk until dawn the next day and you'll get what I mean. Whew! The Levi's Party at MOS on friday was a blast! Went there with chin ming to celebrate his 18th birthday, and to introduce him to the many wonders of clubbing. Haha. Well, they had lots of stuff going on, and I even received a free voodoo doll-like thing from an artist featured over there when I made friends with him. =)) The door gift's also kinda cool. It's this little levi's pouch. Quite feminine, but who cares! It's CUTE!

Clubbing's cool! As long as you don't get adicted. Gosh, I've gotta keep reminding myself of that.

I've been very sinful lately. You know, drinking, slacking,etc. I know there are those out there who'd wanna damn me to hell, and others who would wanna SLAP MY FACE for the things I say/do/believe in. But hey, it's the holidays man! Give me a break!

The first day in genting/KL was pretty okay. Bought some stuff: a shirt from Topman, a lit guidebook, etc. Then returned to genting in the evening, which I've been at ever since.

This has gotta be one of my very-much-longer-than-usual posts!

I miss steph! A great deal. Hope she's doing fine back home in S'pore.

Anyway, think I'll be back tomorrow. Later guys! =))

the long-awaited update

2006-11-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

I bet you guys have been waiting for this for like forever, so cheer, cause it's finally here!

For starters, I'm actually loving my life now. Reason's simple, cause it's the (official, for me) holidays! Went clubbing at Momo last friday with the usual lot: Gerrie, Bridget, Bin Hong, and some of Gerrie's friends. It was exhilarating! I wanna go clubbing again!

Better enjoy myself all I can before the 11th of December, cause that's when the (more) busy life
starts again, with the diploma program and all that. *sigh*

I've also begun to watch movies, after a long absence from doing so. Watched Happy Feet with steph last friday. The penguins are so cute!

As always, I'll attempt to update more often. Ciao!

2006-09-24T10:37:00.000+08:00

The promotional exams start tomorrow, and as usual, I'm feeling very jittery. WHy is it then whenever I feel really afraid, it has to do with studies 99 PERCENT OF THE TIME?! This is really dumb. Apart from being the last exams of the year, they could also be the last exams I'll ever take in MI if I don't bloody hell make it. I screwed lit paper 8 during the mid-years, and if that (or something worse) jolly well happens, I can kiss my life in MI goodbye, cause there's no retaining for this year's batch, due to the new syallabus.

This is one of the few times in my life where I'm feeling really angsty. But I can most likely predict the next one. When I receive my results and realise that I don't make it. So yeah.

Blank Infinity by Epica

2006-09-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

Trying to keep myself afloat upon this stream
But a thought is pulling me down
Pulling me all the way down

We are wandering towards a blank infinity
And extinguishing will now be the only way
To diminish your sins
This vortex can't be filled up again
A hole in space and time

Do you cry to the heaven's high
When you're confined in here?
Do you not ever wonder why
These leaden tears will never dry?
They'll leave behind so many shadows in my mind

High in the sky, all of the clouds are passing by
Wait for the storm, wait for the rain
Wait for the tears to fall down on me

We are wandering towards a blank infinity
And extinguishing will now be the only way
To diminish your sins
This vortex can't be filled up again
A hole in space and time

Do you cry to the heaven's high
When you're confined in here?
Do you not ever wonder why
These leaden tears will never dry?
They'll leave behind so many shadows
Living in me, living in all the memories in my life

Do you wonder why
These tears never dry?
Time forced into life (in my life)
Living in my mind

Can we ever find a way in this labyrinth without end?

Labyrinth has no end

Which turn should I take?
Left or right?
Should I stay?
Should I be the one?

Do you cry to the heaven's high
When you're confined in here?
Do you not ever wonder why
These leaden tears will never dry?
They'll leave behind so many shadows
The substance in time forced into life
Still exists because it's here
Living in me, living in all the memories in my life

Lost inside blank infinity

2006-09-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

Apart from my absence from updating this blog for the past few months, something else went missing today. My beloved steel bracelet! *sigh* I've lost part of my soul...
*sob*

Stress is getting to me...

Missing

2006-09-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

Yup, I know. I've been missing for like forever. Grr. This is what happens if you're taking an 'A' Level course. *sigh* You basically have to dedicate three quarters of your time to studying or you're not likely to make it. This sucks!

On a more positive note, it's pretty obvious I've changed my blog's skin. I love this one. It's just so cute!

The holidays are here, or at least, only in name... =(

2006-08-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

After several weeks of MIAing due to the endless piles of school work and bucketfuls of pressure and stress, I've finally found a short blink in time to update this blog.

I do wanna make it to pre-u 3. I really do! That's why I'm trying my best to work doubly hard these days, in view of my not-so-satisfactory mid-year exam results.

I've begun taking weight gainers, but nothing seems to be happening!!!

Oh and needless to say, I love steph!

2006-07-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

It begins tomorrow

2006-07-03T12:08:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the start of the mid-year exams! And to say the least, I'm far from ready. *sigh* I'm so gonna die!

Steph's down with a fever, so please treat her nicely.

The schedule for tomorrow would be the Chinese AO Paper first, followed by History Paper 1. Needless to say, I'm more than 100% sure I'm not gonna come anywhere near passing the former. Just hope that the history paper wouldn't be too difficult.

Best of luck to all those taking their exams. But actually, I seem to need the luck more than anyone else. =(

2006-07-01T12:16:00.000+08:00

I've got the sudden urge to blog now. Possibly due to the amount of stress I've been having over the past week. The MYEs start next tuesday and I'm not feeling very confident about doing well.

Imean, it's the first time we're taking full papers. Instead of two questions for history, we're now doing four! And we're doing two books for each of the lit papers, with the exception of paper 8, which is an unseen paper.

Oh, the school wasn't too optimistic about my mohawk. As such, I had to get my hair cut THREE times in the bloody week to please them. It's now really short, shall we say spiny? And as such, my spirit's gone. Thanks to the spastic rule! Damn!

I hate my life, more than ever now. =(

Ever heard him sing "Beep"?

2006-06-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

Well I have and I tell you it's freaking hilarious.

Anywho, yoz. It's me, le girlfriend and I've managed to hack back in. (Okay more of coaxed him to hand over his passvord/username) Hehe. *evil grin* Anywho.. it's all HIS fault for making me spend so much time with him. *sobs* I've got a freaking D for my 3D Modelling and I had NEVER in my freaking Poly life have I ever had a D before. Bloody hell. ALL HIS FAULT. GIMME BACK MY As! *sobs* I need to buck up like freaking big time. And he had better pamper me well with lotsa delicious food and chocolates. *hint hint*

Anywho I'd better bail now before he hacks my head off. And.. just to reconfirm everyone's thoughts. He's freaking GAY. I'm just some prop to make his mother think that he's straight. Sighs. I lead a freaking side life. LOLZ.

This is interesting

2006-06-05T08:20:00.000+08:00

Apparently, the organiser of Vaunt @ MOS contacted me. Hmm, I don't know, check the tagboard. Anyway, I might be going down for the Rebirth party on the 18th. Who wants to come along? Just buzz me! My clubbing spirit is back. This is bad!

Anyway, the Great S'pore Sale is so bloody tempting! I've already made a mental list of what to buy. Now, all I need is cash! You see, that's always the problem. Your wants are endless, but your cash isn't! =(

I'll be meeting my PW group in school later. We apparently crossed the deadline and didn't hand up our work. So yeah, best get it done today.

2006-05-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

Just to clear up any burning misconceptions, the people that I was refering to in my previous post were those who were shouting vulgarities at the top of their voices, who think that just because they can "club", they've gained the ownership of the place! Seriously, every 5 minutes or so, I could hear people "chee byeing" here and there, noise pollution at its worst. It's these sort of people that make clubbing such a notorious activity. Why do you think parents discourage their children from going clubbing? Because of the tarnished image portrayed by these misguided individuals.

Lastly, I don't mean to offend anyone with the previous post. Just stating my views. I'm not forcing anyone to agree with me.

Vaunt @ MOS

2006-05-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

Come to think of it, the title's rather inappropriate. WHy? Because it never happened! Well, not for me at least. It was so bloody crowded that I couldn't even get in. After lining up in vain for about an hour, I decided that the cover cost of $18 just wasn't worth all this trouble. So, to avoid wasting my precious time, and in hope of catching the last train home (which I did), I did the smartest thing of all. I left.

Main point to note:

Never, under any circumstances, attend an underaged party.

Basically, 90% of the entire crowd at MOS were not 18. Hell, out of these I think more than half were under 16. I could practically stuff a milk bottle or pacifier in their mouths and they'd look perfect. Aww, ain't that cute? Hmm, a large majority of them were also HEAVILY underdressed, indicating their in experience and clearly screaming their immaturity. I mean, who the hell goes clubbing wearing a t-shirt or polo tee? Though the dress code was supposedly "smart casual", many people left out "smart", possibly because they are clearly "not smart", and replaced it with "extremely". Hmm, with the kind of crowd present at MOS, it could become a freaking kindergarten, complete with a playground Come on kids. Let's play hide and seek! Or just hide, and never let yourself be found! Also, I noticed many more of nature's atrocities there. Most of the girls, a large majority lacking any visible signs of a decent figure, were wearing extremely low-cut stuff! Please people! I've just recovered from a sore eye! Also, who in the blue hell goes clubbing wearing spectacles?! Ever heard of the not-so-recent innovation called "contact lenses" The guys, well, let's just say they put the "T" in typical.

Apparently, my bitching mood has lasted till now. =))

Floodgates opened

2006-05-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

It sure isn't good to keep stress all bottled up. Otherwise, You'll end up having a really bad breakdown, like what happened to me today. *sigh*

My eyes still hurt. Partially due to the sore eye I've been having for the last 3 days.

This is so not a good start to the holidays. Apparently, the stress has somehow gotten worse.

Someone just kill me..

Finally!

2006-05-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

At long last, the much-awaited June holidays are here!

Finally, some time to relax for a few split seconds... Then a week after school re-opens, the mid-year exam will be in full swing.

Had my GP exam today. And as always, I don't know what to expect, since GP itself is such an unpredictable subject. *sigh*

Met steph after that, and she accompanied me to get my (very much-awaited) haircut at Salon4Hair at Paragon. I've got a proper mohawk now. You know, sides really short; top's long and spiked. Yeah!

Having this sickening feeling in my throat. I think I'm coming down with a flu. =(

Reality?

2006-05-21T15:51:00.000+08:00

Met steph after school last friday to watch the much-awaited movie, The Da Vinci Code. Needless to say, it delivered what I expected, and was very faithful to the book, though the pace was a little too quick. The movie has a very deep meaning to it, and if you feel as strongly for the entire issue as I do, you'll know what I mean. Well, this is probably going to be the topic of discussion for many over the next few weeks.

Steph and I also celebrated our 1 year anniversary early. Cause our schedules are kinda tight on the actual date (22nd May), we decided that an early celebration would be appropriate. I love my 1 year presents! =))

Let's fast-forward to saturday. Went to school for the MI Carnival. After that, I headed down to M5 Headquarters to judge the first round of contestants of the Model of Tomorrow Competition. I was exceptionally nice, maybe cause it's the first round. Hmm, I see some potential in a few, and lack of it in others.

Took a acb down to pasir ris park for raine's birthday bbq after that. Made several new (and crazy) friends over there. And hell, I enjoyed myself! =))

Back to the real life tomorrow. It's school and more school. And my GP exam is this friday!

2006-05-21T15:42:00.000+08:00

Why should I do favours? If all everyone does is criticise my actions.

2006-05-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

Visited the gym this morning for another round of working out. Make that the fourth one this week! Wooo!

I wish the weekend could be longer. Apparently, one holiday doesn't seem to change anything. *sigh*

At long last, The Da Vinci Code is opening this thursday, and I'll be watching it with steph on friday. Hahahaha! I can't wait!

I wanna take kick-boxing classes!

An evening to remember

2006-05-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

My MIAing syndrome is back!

Busy busy busy.

Visited the gym this morning, and aching all over right now. After that, met hugen at raffles city so he could pass me the details for an upcoming musical. Reached home shortly after, and before I knew it, I was out again. This time to meet steph in orchard.

Though the meeting was arranged in the nick of time, it was definitely worth the effort. Had a great (and very filling) dinner at Billy Bombers. Strolled around after that and basically hung out. This is definitely one of the outings I'm gonna remember. Steph is such a sweetie!

I'm *silence followed by snoring*

Beginning-of-the-week trauma

2006-05-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

I can't believe this! Just one day into the week and I already wished it never started. Mostly due to the fact that I'm freaking exhausted from the tiring weekend that just passed.

Hugen cancelled tomorrow's meeting cause he's gotta attend some important meeting. *sigh* I just hope he sends me the plans asap.

I've got homework I never knew existed! =(

UOB D & D

2006-05-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

Had a rather tiring (but eventful) day. I'm exhausted!

Anyway, william messaged me this morning to inform me that the UOB Dinner & Dance was tonight, and asked me to go for it. Basically, about a week ago, I assisted nicholas, one of my company's bosses and a celebrity, teach catwalking to a bunch of employees from UOB for their D & D, and each and every single one of them was older than me. I taught the girls while nic handled the guys. Though we've taught them for barely 4 days, everybody said that their performance tonight was professional. Our students have done us proud! And hell I'm flattered. Moreover this being my first proper teaching assignment. Anyway, I've made lots of new friends too. And I guess my banking advantages in future in secured! xD And guess what, they were modelling with one of my favourite brands: Raoul. Nic and myself were also invited for the dinner, which was held at Meritus Mandarin. The food was passable, but nothing too impressive. But I like the setting of the place, very posh and classy. Anyway, the experience of teaching and watching them perform was definitely enriching. I seriously hope I'll see more of this sort of things in the future.

I've got some pictures from the event, which should be up on friendster soon.

PI Done!

2006-05-05T10:56:00.000+08:00

Just finished editing my PI. And finally (it's for real this time), it's out of my hands. Haha, so I'm like slacking in the com lab now, which explains why I'm here =))

Finally, the weekend is approaching! Did I mention how I've grown to love the weekends more nowadays?

I seriously wanna go shopping this weekend! To de-stress and all that!

Same old thing

2006-05-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

Yet another tiring day has passed. And here I am once again.

Finally finished my PI today! At long last, that cursed thing is out of my hands.

Speaking of project work, I got a hint today of who's in my PW group. Well, no violent objections to that. But I know of some people who aren't the least bit pleased with their groups, and quite frankly, I don't blame them.

I can't wait for the weekend!

Get a load of this! XD

2006-05-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

Purple Cow Poem

(from http://www.newnavy.us/navy-poems/purple-cow-poem.htm)

Knock knock
Who are you?
Knock nock
Moo.
What are you doing
I can't understand
Who are you?
What are you man?
I am my dreams
And so it would seem
I think I am glad
I think I have had
A good deal
A great day
Being a cow
I have to graze
The grass is purple
And so you will know
I am the purple cow
You will know where I go

The Purple Cow is please to know that he/she/it has a poem dedicated to him/her/it. The Purple Cow would like to encourage people to write more about him/her/it. Anyways, the Purple Cow needs to go grazing in the purple fields off Willy Wonka's underground land for some nutrients so that he/she/it can save the world and produce better and finer lavender milk to squirt around. Moo.

Yet another reunion

2006-05-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

I've noticed that the articles in the weekly issues of TIME have gotten more and more interesting recently. Last week, it was something about Opus Dei, and this week, it's about Asian-Americans. =))

School's getting more and more tiring nowadays. It's a wednesday and I'm feeling completely drained!

Met steph for a while at NYP earlier today. Used her laptop to do some editing to my PI in NYP's library. Yes, I have successfully inflitrated it once again!

Met my ex-classmate, eugene, by coincidence at NYP too. Had a little chat with him about secondary school days. Haha, that sure brought back memories man. Especially about Mr pang and his ruler! xD

I am thinking of dropping by HIHS on friday, if I've got nothing else on. Hmm.

Holidays are honey, and I'm the bee

2006-05-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

Yup. That's true alright! That's exactly how much I yearn for holidays and weekends nowadays. School's seriously killing me. I swear I could just fall into a deep sleep right now.

Watched the much awaited movie Mirrormask last friday. And boy, it was GOOD! The effects were stunning, and lots of the movie looked as if it was cut out from paper or something. Very creative and artistic. Typical Neil Gaiman storyline about the contrast between reality and fiction, about our world and another. But it still rocks! And last but not least, I loved the comical dialouge too. =))

Anyway, something good happened for a change yesterday. It was Labour Day! Honestly, I was ecstatic about the day itself but hey, it's a public holiday, so naturally, I was overjoyed. Spent the entire day at Sentosa with steph and her poly friends, tanning, swimming, playing captain's ball in the water. Steph and I had lunch at this cafe by the sea. We ordered mozzerella sticks, jalepeno peppers and chicken drumlets. Needless to say, the food tasted heavenly, and was definitely worth the price. And finally, I've got a tan! A rather mild one though *sulks*

Having such an eventful day yesterday, who wouldn't be exhausted? So yeah, I slept pretty well last night. Never thought that the fatigue would last till today, but it did. *smack*

Tried my best to concentrate in school today, and succeeded to a very small extent.

I'm at home now, and dozing off even as I'm typing this. Better get some rest before I fall asleep on the keyboard. Toodles!

Oh yeah, Best of luck to bridget, shiva and ignatious for the debates today!

Why?

2006-04-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

The main reason as to why this blog isn't active these few days is because I've got basically nothing good to write.

Unlike some, I'm selective of what I blog about. I've mentioned in one of my previous entries that blogs are forums of self-expression, similar to diaries. However, some of us tend to forget that unlike diaries, which can be kept private, blogs can be freely accessed by anyone. Firewalls and passwords can always be infiltrated, no matter how "fool proof" they are believed to be. As such, I feel that we should seriously watch our words, and not go around shooting off like a bunch of intelligence-starved idiots, just because we don't like something or someone. I mean, you'll give yourself and those around you unecessary inconveniences, just because you're suffering from diahorrea of self-expression. The side-effect is that you'll get constipation in the brain, and therefore, not think before you blog. It's sad how selfish ignorance can blind us from very obvious and logical things.

I'm not saying that self-expression should be completely restricted. I'm just saying that it should be practised with caution, especially on blogs.

2006-04-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

Items in my bag -->

-Ipod
-Shades from Topman
-Make-Up Kit
-Black XS perfume
-Tissue
-Crumpler Handphone Pouch
-Impact Mints
-Hair Clay from The Face Shop

Just felt like it!

...

2006-04-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

Well, what more can I say man? It's like there's hardly any word/s to describe it.

Oh, wait! On second thought, there ARE some things I'd like to say.

1) If almost everything mentioned contradicts itself, don't even bother mentioning it. In other words, shut up! I would have expected so much more from an arts student, but now, I guess not.

2) If you think you're so good, prove it! Bet you didn't think of that eh? You passed off the opportunity anyway, which shows that you're nothing but a coward. I'm not just refering to one person by the way.

3) I thought this was gonna stop. That somehow you'd find that small molecule of sensibility (or maturity) in the recesses of that lump known as a brain. But now, I don't think it exists. Even if it did, you probably lost it a long time ago. And I'm not just refering to sensibility.

4) I don't seek to unintentionally offend anyone. So if you're asking yourself the question whether it's you I'm talking about, it probably isn't. Cause it's pretty clear (as in "in your face") to the person/s I'm refering to.

5) I probably speak for more than just myself in this entry. Since nobody bothered to do much, I will.

6) Readers. Get pissed at this entry for all I care. I'm just stating fact.

Pleasantly Saying The Most Terrible Things

2006-04-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

I must say this is probably why I am beginning to love emo songs. They have the most philosophical titles with the most honest lyrics that totally portrays what everyone feels at one point or another. By the way, Pleasantly Saying The Most Terrible Things, the title for this entry is by Moneen and it totally reflects whatever that's happening in M.I now.

BTW, this is Stephanie here and I'm just being the meddlesome moron that I am.

Why am I choosing to write in his blog instead of my own.. well.. for two reasons. One, he hasn't updated his blog for aeons to come and two, no one bothers to read my blog anyways so what the heck. =P Anywho, all I know so far is that there are some rather weird and petty 'conflicts' going on in the class of 05A1. I don't exactly know what but all I can say is.... whoever is making a huge fuss out of nothing..please. Grow up. Is that person simply deprived of being spoilt during his or her childhood? Anyways, aren't the mid-years coming? So aren't you guys suppose to like study? O_o So study for heaven's sake and concentrate on doing well instead of screwing up other people's concentration. Anywho if he/she is so hellbent on making other people's lives miserable then go and buy a stressball and make its life miserable. That's what the damn thing is for! Anyways.. good luck for your mid-years humans. May you guys do well. (For those who are SIMPLY hellbent on making others' lives miserable.. seriously.. go and get counselled or get your IQ and EQ checked or get some help from the local mental hospital because it seems like whoever he/she is.. he/she really need some medical attention and some dired help.) Okay.. 'nuff said.. people just concentrate on your exams yeah?? Seriously good luck!! =)

P.S. Oh yeah I forgot to mention. No one flames Nigel but me. So go get a life. And by the way, don't bother flaming my friends or any other humans for that matter.. Because when you take a good look into the mirror, you will see someone flame-worthy... yourself.
So that's all there is to it. *grins* Ciao.

I'm going nuts!

2006-04-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

This "purple cow" better start acting its age, before I expose its elusive identity!

In other words, don't cross the boss! =P

I'm seriously peeved! Have your lessons till 4.30pm and you'll get what I mean.

Anyway, got back some of my much-awaited common tests marks. So far, I'm only happy with my literature paper 8 marks, mainly because the other two marks I got back were chinese and economics, and basically, I so don't do well in them. So yeah.

Here's the programme for the next few days:

Friday:

-Meet ian and pay Brave Models a visit
-Meet steph for dinner

Saturday:

-Meet chin ming for lunch
-Attend michelle's birthday celebration

Sunday:

-Meet my lit project group

So you see, I need a life!

Still as dead as a doornob..

2006-04-03T08:58:00.000+08:00

SO THE PURPLE COW IS HERE TO SAVE THE DAY!!!!!

*Ta ta da, ta ta ta da da da!*

Right, now everybody sing this with me..

All the bananas in the world untie! And a one a two a one two three!

Peel banana peel peel banana!

Shake banana shake shake banana!

Chop banana chop chop banana!

........................... okay erm.. maybe this is getting a bit too.. lame.. The Purple Cow is erm.. bouncing off in style and with what's left of its dignity before the rightful owner and his girlfriend finds out who it is and starts making steaks out of it.

Purple Cow, out and awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy-moo.

The SFF rocks!

2006-04-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

This place looks familliar. Oh yeah, it's my blog!

Anyway, I went for an outdoor photoshoot with paul, a freelance photographer, yesterday. Pretty enjoyable. The whole shoot centered around three themes: formal, smart casual and avant garde. I'll be getting the pictures on wednesday. I so can't wait for them!

Anyway, the previous week has been a rather hectic one for me. With common tests at school and the S'pore Fashion Festival on. I went to watch several fashion shows during this weekend, and learned some stuff from each one. But mainly, I enjoyed the atmosphere, which needless to say, was exhilirating!

Oh well, my long weekend comes to a premature end tomorrow. It's back to school for me *sigh*

My return

2006-03-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

Alright! That's enough! Move over! Clear off, the boss is coming through!

Let me clear up this "purple cow" issue. Well, let's just say I've already found out who you are. So yeah. Nice try, but naaaaaah!

Well, a year older I have become at this very moment... ;)

The rehersals for the MDIS Open House fashion show is in full-swing. Met the entire group of people doing the show today. Saw mostly familliar faces and made several new friends. Pretty nice people from my first impression of them. Oh, and we had to practise catwalking like several times before william a.k.a the choreographer was finally satisfied. Took a cab to yishun with raine later, and helped her think of excuses as to why she arrived home late. Dropped her off at her place in khatib and took the rest of the ride home.

Oh well, I know it's kinda last minute. But if any of you guys are interested in coming down to watch me, you're most welcomed. It's at the MDIS Uni-Campus in queenstown. 501 Stirling Road. Best of all, this one's free!

10 Things I Want For My 19th Birthday

2006-03-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

1) Steph as my lawfully wedded ~~slav~~... erm.. I mean wife.
2) An invitation to model for The Singapore Fashion Show!
3) Fries will not try to maul my ~~gorgeo~~.. ~~handsom~~.. ~~gawdl~~.. sauve face again.
4) Make it out of M.I alive with a decent 'A' Level Cert that will get me somewhere.
5) A hot body ~~good enough to attract some guys~~
6) Own New Urban Male.
7) A~~G-strin..~~ new pair of shoes.
8) ~~This hot guy I saw at the MRT the other day~~ Ear studs
9) People to wish me a Happy Birthday.
10) To join Man Hunt.

Note: Obviously Nigel do not want like one quarter of the stuff mentioned above. (So not gonna tell you guys which ones..haha)

*coughs* Anyway, this is the first time we've met, lesser mortals! I am the Purple Cow! And I am here to erm... ~~squirt lavender milk~~ hack into Nigel's account just to fulfill.. erm.. his ...erm..whatever. I am so not gonna try to finish the sentence anymore. Anyways.. MooOOo!

Purple Cow out and AwayYyYy!

Moo.

What to do oh what to do?

2006-03-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

He's not updating frequently enough.

I am bored.

I need a life.

I gained two fucking kgs ever since we started dating.

I'm gonna blame Nigel for this.

I'm gonna pull Fries tail and watch him go on another catty frenzy.

Muahahaha.

Now if only I can lose weight as easily as Mario could when Nigel doesn't update. . .

Dead and buried. Well, almost..

2006-03-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

This blog's dead I tell you! I'm been like missing for so long I doubt it can remember me! Oh well, I'm back (after an extremely, humongously long period of something too long to be called time)

I'm having my march holidays now. Wait, what holidays? I'm got like tons of holiday homework, which I find such a kill joy as holidays aren't supposed to be packed with homework! The term itself has I-Make-No-Sense written all over it... =(

On a more positive note, I've got a casting tomorrow at some studio in paya lebar, and I'll be going on a cruise from wednesday to friday, and on that same friday, I'll be going for a modelling course that'll last till saturday. Woah! Seriously, what holidays?

Busy...

2006-03-03T15:24:00.000+08:00

As most would know, I've been rather busy, with school, musical rehersals and other miscellaneous stuff. Daryl's been taunting me on my tagboard about him losing weight faster than I can update this blog (which is one of the reasons why this is here)

I'm doing a fashion show next saturday at Rush Dance Club, Md Sultan Road. Tickets are at $12, inclusive of one housepour i think. Ask me for more details. Kindly support! =))

Back by popular demand

2006-02-26T09:12:00.000+08:00

Due to popular demand, and the fact the daryl is comparing his weight-loss to me updating my blog, I'm here right now. Needless to say, I've been really busy over the past few weeks.

I went for the first musical rehersal yesterday. We made some changes to the script, mainly on the grammatical errors and the like. We also went through the script a couple of times, to get all of us into the mood of the performance. Oh yeah, I'm playing Somchai, Dawan's dad, for those who are familliar with the story.

Pretty stressed out at school too. With all the homework, projects, tests, etc.

I need a life!

a pretty great day

2006-02-19T09:47:00.000+08:00

The auditions (two of them to be precise) went rather well. For those who don't know, the first one was the History Seminar thing at NUS, in which a group of us had to come up with a skit that illustrated imperialism. The second was an audition for some stage play at the Youth Centre.

The judges at the history seminar said that we touched on ancient imperialism, which was something quite rare from what they had seen. However, they commented that our play was rather short as compared to the other JCs...

I left NUS with ms nora, aly and mel. We met charlotte and nadia by coincidence at clementi mrt station. And it turned out that charlotte was going to tiong bahru, so we took the same train. Talked about some stuff on the way, like our opinions of people and all that.

When I got off at somerset mrt station, I recieved a message telling me that the audition was postponed to 3pm, instead of 1pm. So, I met bridget first to go for my long-awaited facial session at her aunt's shop. Feels real good after one of those, and better still, I got it at half-price!

So anyway, I rushed back down to the Youth Centre after my facial for the audition. It turns out that my interviewer was pretty impressed with what he saw and heard from me. So, I'm officially in the production. We're doing a musical of the book "Sing To The Dawn" Yeah, it's that elusive secondary school literature book, which explains why we'll be performing for mostly schools. I was told that I'll earn $50 per show, pretty neat.

Had dinner with joshua (my manager) and mary ann (now officially our stage manager) after that. Had a very interesting conversation on explicit stuff... xD

I'm tired

Food for thought

2006-02-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

Redundancy is stupidity in a round-about, long-winded and straight-up-your-ass form.

I'm not making much sense to most here. Oh well...

2006-02-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

A word of advice to all readers:

Blogs are forums of expression, NOT delusion!

Period.

Someone's asking for it!

2006-02-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

To a certain bitch: Get a reality check! You don't look good, and probably never will. So don't bother. Honestly, I feel you're just looking worse by the day. Your face isn't even fit to be placed on a doormat! If I didn't judge your looks, let me see *ponders* Oh damn, your attitude ain't much better either. I mean, if you're that desperate to change your looks, you may wanna consider plastic surgery. But you can't do the same for attitude, can you? Oh yeah, I feel sorry for those who have to TOLERATE you! You don't respect your friends, you blatantly make use of them! You can't survive without them right? You parasite! Oh, hate to burst your bubble, but they aren't true friends, they're just people who can't seem to find a mind of their own. And they're borrowing yours, which in my opinion, should be fed to dogs (No wait! I'm against animal cruelty) So let's see, there's like a whole long list of faults you've got, but hey, I'll be nice and let you learn the rest of them through consequences. It's already begun. You may not see it (which is quite frankly not surprising), but I do.

stress and excitement

2006-02-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

Stress is catching up with me, and I seriously need to get a life!

The diploma test has been postponed to next monday, which means I get to go for the history lesson on saturday. But more importantly, I get to go for the casting at UAN with a peace of mind on friday.

I've gotta do this history skit thing, and it's due it slightly more than a week's time. Several other 05A1ers are involved too, including joshua, bin hong, charmaine, jie yi, alyson, melanie and ash. A few of us met up at jurong library today, and we came up with the brief ideas for our skit. Thank goodness the meeting was worthwhile!

Oh yeah, instead of watching the fashion show on saturday, an unexpected turn of events now ensures that I'm "doing" the fashion show. As in I get to "walk the walk" once again! And yes! I'm all psyched up for it!

Tomorrow's friday! The only day in the week I'm looking forward to. Well, I'll get to see steph again! That's largely the reason. So yeah.

STRESS

2006-02-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

It's just stress, stress and more stress these days! I've got like, tons of stuff to catch up on, and a diploma exam this saturday. Talk about no peace of mind...

What's more, I've got a casting at some agency this friday and a Valentine's Day event at Rush (wherever that is) to attend on saturday. There's some singing performances and the like. Tickets are at $18 for girls and $20 for guys. If anyone's interested in coming (I highly doubt so), inform me.

Oh yeah, about the diploma exam, I'm so gonna fail man!

Back to the real world

2006-02-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

Most good things have to come to an end, and the most recent one being my CNY holidays ended yesterday. *sigh* So naturally, today's another day at school...

Thankfully the dismissal time's 1.30pm today. Otherwise, I could have sworn that I'll die of stress! In other news, I met steph in town earlier, and we just strolled around (like we always do) and had lunch at cineleisure. The sweetie bought me an early valentine's day gift!

Tomorrow's gonna be another long day. And what's worse, I've got lit tuition after school! *grumbles*

CNY's eve

2006-01-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Better take this time to update as often as I can, cause I'll be down-trodden with school work after the CNY holidays.

It's CNY's eve today. And I've been stuck at home. Honestly. And I'm not very sure why. *sigh*

I'll be going for a reunion dinner later though...

Boring day. Hope the dinner will change my prespective...

Ciao!

Fear realised

2006-01-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

Number one fear on every emcee's list:

What if no one listens to you?

All I've gotta say is...... been there, done that. *sigh* It's like absolutely no one was giving a damn about me aka the canteen emcee today. In fact, no one could care less about the whole celebration. It's like this, I announced something, a few curious people gave me weird looks, and that's it! This same process was repeated about three times. Oh well, that's what you get for being a 'backyard' emcee.

Headed down to town with amanda and her friends after school to meet steph. We had lunch at this really cool eatery at cineleisure. I had escargot! After almost a year's refrainment! And it tasted swell! Shared grilled fish with steph as well. I'm definitely going back there to eat sometime!

Steph and myself went on our own way after lunch, and spent some quality time together. Hung out at the usual places. I also saw lots of familliar (some unwelcomed) faces in town today.

It's CNY's eve tomorrow!

Usual

2006-01-24T13:53:00.000+08:00

I'm basically doing the usual stuff. Busy blogging in the computer lab when I'm supposed to be preparing for some debate. Hee. That's life!

An emcee isn't supposed to look for teachers to find out what they want him to say! They should look for him *sniggers* Bah! Anyway, I've gotta look for like four or five teachers by the end of today. And so far, let's say I've only found one! Bloody hell! Why is it always when something good happens, there's a catch to it? Damn!

Three or more idiots are spamming me on my tagboard even as I type!

a plainly interesting day

2006-01-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

Dropped by NYP for its open-house today, more of to visit a certain stephanie who was on duty actually. We had a little snack of sausage prata (weird but good) and basically, we just hung out!

Went down to town later to shop for my brother's birthday present. Ended up buying him a bag. Oh yeah, I bumped into lyon outside scotts. He just finished shooting for some commercial. I'm so jealous! Wish I had that kind of opportunity *sigh*

Headed down to Swissotel Merchant Court later to meet my family for my brother's birthday celebration. The food's good man! There was even a chocolate fountain, in which one could dip marshmallows into. Steph's gonna have my head for this!

Went to northpoint to do some basic shopping after that. I don't think it's even shopping anyway, but never mind...

Tuesday Night @ Phunk Bar

2006-01-18T16:37:00.000+08:00

Yes. Yes. I'm out on a school night! Though this time, I was doing something a little less ordinary...

I've mentioned several times about some competition in my previous posts. Well, that 'competition' happened yesterday. And needless to say, it was a modelling competition.

Rushed down to M5 after school dismissed at 2.15pm. I reached at about 3pm, and I was like "Man! I'm too early!" But well, three people beat me to that spot. *sigh* No matter. Anyway, I took a much-needed bath there (yes, there was a shower), and started gettng ready for the big event that night. It turned out that the formal segment was first, instead of the originally planned casual segment. So, the lot of us (by this time there were about six or seven) changed into the tops supplied by Bugis Street (I hate that place!). Thank heavens I brought my blazer along! Cos the shirt supplied wasn't exactly nice. So yeah. Anyway, the procedure was that there would be an elimination round where fifteen out of the twenty-eight of us would be voted out.

We had several brief rehersals and before I knew it, the guests started arriving and we had to go backstage to get ready.

Let me skip all the way to after I did my walk. Apparently, it seemed that the crowd wasn't exactly coorperative so we had to personally request for votes from the audience. This was one heck of an embarassment, but I didn't have time to care much. So well, got myself several votes in the form of cash (in order to vote, one must put a sum of money into the respective model's tin. What a ripoff!).

A little later, it was time for the casual segment and elimination round. We changed into our casual outfits (which we owned). I brought the shirt that steph gave me! xD. Similar to the first round, we catwalked out into the fray, did a few poses and returned backstage. As for the elimination round, it was so like American Idol! All the contestants were supposed to assembel on stage and the emcees would call about four of five of them out, and inform them whether they're staying or have been eliminated. After all was said and done and about three groups (two of them were eliminated, one stayed) later, the emcees announced that the rest of us were going to the finals! I was like "WHAT?!!!" Cause I so did not expect this to happen! My shock and happiness was rather clear to the crowd I guess =))

Next up was the "Question & Answer" round. The question I got was "If you could eliminate one of the contestants, who would it be?" Such a question would naturally stun most people, and I'm not ashamed to say that I was taken aback for a few seconds. When I regained my composure, I said to the crowd that I wouldn't eliminate anyone, as all of us have worked so hard to make it this far, and as such, if I had the chance to pick the winner, it would be everyone who had participated tonight (cliche but true).

I'll skip all the way to the final elimination round. This was the final time we'll be going out that night, and one winner would be chosen among the thirteen of us. The elimination process was similar to the first round. So once the smoke had cleared and all was said and done, we found out that Amin, one of my fellow models, had picked up the victory. Strangely enough, I wasn't disappointed at all, but in fact, I was happy for myself and all of us. (I know, this is also cliche but absolutely positively true)

I would like to extend a personal handshake, a hug, etc. to the following people:

Audience:

Bin Hong and Bridget (thanks for supporting me guys! I owe the both of you a big favour each)

Shawn (Thanks for coming and supporting me man! I really appreciate it, though it was kind of a last minute buzz, but no matter!)

Random people among the audience (Thanks for the votes and the cheers guys! Hope you'll chance upon this entry someday!)

Models:

Amin
Reagan
Shaleh
Ansar
Cherie
Joycelyn
Rachael
Farhana
Liyana
Rizan
Imelda
Bella
Kai Ling

And the rest of my fellow models! You guys did a great job! My apologies for not remembering your names.

The Emcees!!!! Thanks for the great show guys!

And the whole of M5's management! Joshua, Amirul, Siti, William, etc. You guys rock!!!

Other honourable mentions:

Stephanie (Thanks for being with me spiritually darling, and believing in me. I love you! *hugs*)

Kimberly (Thanks for calling in to check on me!)

Javert! (Hope you were supporting me spiritually. Thanks anyway!)

And anybody else whom I've forgotten to mention. My sincere apologies and thanks to you guys!

One period earlier!

2006-01-17T13:47:00.000+08:00

Updating my blog in the computer lab once again, and mr chan's right beside me. xD

I'm dismissed one period earlier than usual! Wooo!

Oh yeah, I had dark chocolate today. That explains the hyper-activeness.

The competition's in a few hours. And I'm still not as exicited as I should be. I wonder why... Anyway, bin hong and bridget are going to watch it. Look on the bright side guys, you can spend a lifetime making fun of me if I make any mistakes (which I seriously hope would not happen)

Wish me luck!

Rotting away in the computer lab

2006-01-16T09:22:00.000+08:00

That's exactly what's happening now. Just finished my group presentation for our GP project, and instaed of listening attentively as I should be doing to the current group, I'm actually blogging!

Apparently, mr chan has a knack of asking me questions regarding my presentations, just like last year. *sigh*

Somehow, I'm not as enthusiastic as I should be. *ponders* Well, in short, I'm so gonna get screwed at the competition tomorrow. *prepares guillotine*

one tiring week

2006-01-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

Thank goodness for today, which marks the end of a very tiring week of school. Seriously, I have no idea why I'm so tired nowadays. *sigh* It's gotta be the stress.

Met up with steph darling at city hall earlier today. We had lunch at The Soup Spoon at Raffles City, then we headed down to marina square to visit melody and well, hang out. Woah! Haven't seen her in some time, and she agreed to come for my modelling competition the coming tuesday! Thanks a billion mel!

Steph and myself proceeded to the Esplanade after that. We enjoyed the evening scenery and tooks lots of pictures. Hee!

Oh yeah, anyone else interested in coming as audiences for the modelling competition on tuesday, please inform me. It's held at 7.30pm at some club located along Mohammed Sultan Road. I could seriously use some support! =))

Spelling problems?

2006-01-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

I've recently realised the extent of obnoxiousness some people in s'pore would go to disgrace the language we love and speak. In other words, english.

I mean, do you like have a spelling problem or something? The simplest words like "like" can be spelled as "lyk". Putting in another letter isn't gonna cripple your fingers I'm sure? And what about the multiple letters problem? Some people spell very normal words like "myself" as "myyselff", which apparently, tells a great deal about their level of intellect. And yes, words which are hideously deformed for some weird reason eg. "stupid" spelled as "toopid". I seriously wonder what sick pleasure these people attain from all this. I considered pronunciation, but then, most of us wouldn't pronouce stupid as "toopid", but surprisingly, a considerable number type messages that way(in emails, on msn, whole blogging, etc.)

You people think it's damn cool eh? Well guess what, it's so totally not! It just shows the lack of intelligence and decent education that is fundamental to every individual in society. As we know, presentation is rather important when meeting people who aren't familliar with you. So just imagine if you were to type a resume ridden with spelling errors. Your prospective employer wouldn't even consider you, as your resume would lack professionalism. And even on a personal level, would you want your friends and family to think that your spelling is mediocre? I certainly doubt so.

I've always wonder if these people have ever stopped and asked themselves what they are doing to the language that forms the basis of modern civilisation. I mean, would you want the next generation to grow up not knowing how to spell properly? I don't. And I don't think anyone would. So, for the sake of our generation and those succeeding us, PLEASE SPELL PROPERLY.

BORED

2006-01-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

Stuck in school. particularly the library. And surrounded by fellow 05A1ers. We're supposed to be discussing about the GP project, but instead, we're blog-surfing.

When bin hong's angry, he'll bang everything! This sounds so wrong!

We're bored people doing lame quizzers

Mr chan's behind me and he doesn't notice a thing. I'm good!

a trip to heaven?

2006-01-08T07:41:00.000+08:00

Went to CHIJ Toa Payoh with steph yesterday. Woah! The place was heaven I tell you! (with referance to the arcitechure and of course, the people) There's no better place to bask in glory than there! Among my kind of people and all that. Haha, whatever! If I'm gonna become a teacher, I'm definitely gonna teach there! =)) (Don't cry darling! You're still the only one!)

Followed steph and her friends for lunch after that, and a while later, I met up with joshua, bin hong and jasmine to do our GP project. We're like still no where near completion *sigh* And the deadline's like, next wednesday. Fucking shit! Couldn't they like, inform us earlier or something? Damn!

Oh yes! I'm up at this unearthly hour once again. Just completed my history homework. Okay, at least that's one burden off my aching shoulders. But I've still got econs! And I know nuts bout it!

Time doesn't always matter!

2006-01-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

Yeah! You got that right man! I actually understood econs! In fact, I understood more in today's lesson than I did in the whole of last year! Mr Tang's somehow able to drill the econs concepts through my skull! I even bothered to do the econs homework given on wednesday that was supposed to be due on friday, but was gone through today as there's no econs lesson on friday. This is looking good... =))

Kinda exhausted at this present moment though. Largely due to the fact that school ended at four thirty. *sigh* Welcome back to the slog-your-ass-off life!

Thankfully, the dismissal time on friday will always be twelve forty-five. xD

Post-holiday fatigue

2006-01-03T19:24:00.001+08:00

Just the first day and I'm already feeling like crap! Wouldn't you? If you had two common tests. That's exactly what happened. And the best part is I completely forgot about them during my holidays! Well, the good thing is that the tests were for GP and Chinese, so not much studying is needed for the former and there's very very little I can do regarding the latter (even if I studied). So yeah...

Tthe batch of year ones this year are rather sad. No one in particular caught my eye! And there's actually someone from HIHS among them! *sigh*. Oh yeah, steph just informed me that her cousin's orientation group leader is bridget! This is such a coincidence!

Guess there's the Chinese New Year holidays to look forward to in about three weeks. Till then, I'll suffer this agony called school!

Tomorrow! The end of days in so-called bliss

2006-01-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

Finally! I got to see steph today! After she's been overseas for like twice in less than two weeks. Sheesh! But I'm grateful for it anyway. Thanks darling *hugs*

School re-opens tomorrow. Shit! It's a whole new year of stress for me, now that I'm in pre-u 2. There's project work, new stuff to learn and that STUPID diploma course to worry about. *sigh* Not an ideal start to the year eh?

day 1 of the new year

2006-01-01T11:16:00.000+08:00

The first post of the new year! *applause*

Don't mind the enthusiasm. In truth, I'm not really looking forward to this year, cos well, I'm in pre-u 2 now. That means double the stress of pre-u 1! I barely scraped through last year by the skin of my teeth, so yeah.

School re-opens in two days. And I'm so not looking forward to it! Considering the fact that 90 percent of my december holidays were spent attending that stupid diploma course, you probably understand why I'm seriously I need of MORE HOLIDAYS!

Taking the education system into consideration, s'pore isn't exactly the best place to live in. I mean, most people learn stuff only to forget them once a test or exam has passed. And believe me, s'pore is the only country that actually allows the "ten-years series". This encourages students to merely memorise the style of questions, and not so much on the facts. Most other countries already offer tertiary courses in secondary school eg. Media Studies. So in short, I feel some changes ought to be made.

a new year approaches

2005-12-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

I've spent most of the evening thinking. You know, looking back on the year and stuff. Kinda invokes a slight feeling of nostalgia in me. There have been ups and downs but on the whole, 2005 was pretty okay...

Well, I've mentally listed out my resolutions for the new year, which is in about five minutes. And hopefully, I could fufil mos, if not all, of them. =))

I guess that's that then. Happy New Year people! *fireworks*

Countdowns? Not this year.

2005-12-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

Just hearing all you clowns talk about going to countdowns gets me really jealous! Cos I won't be able to attend one for various reasons! *sigh* Yeah, yeah. Go on gloating!

Anyway, I'll be spending New Year's eve at home if everything remains the same as it is now...

Oh yeah, I need to get a life! It's five more days till school re-opens, and I haven't had a decent holiday!

Anyway, I went for holy innocents' drama club's gathering yesterday. Heard several VERY interesting things, like how rebecca informed me that I've sorta become a 'legend' in HIHS as the people can't seem to forget me, even though I left more than a year ago. Other stuff included the latest gossip that was going around, and one paticular piece of information within the drama club concerning me. Seriously, I thought that most of those people wouldn't even give a damn whether I'm alive or dead, but hey, they never cease to surprise and astound me. Oh yeah, most fail to realise that they remembering me isn't gonna make me feel bad about myself. In fact, I feel, how should I put it, slightly flattered. Well, guess that's the impression I've left on them, and as many times as I've thrown myself against the pedestral of forgiveness, it doesn't seem to work. So yeah. After all, there's only so much you can stuff into that mass we call 'a brain'. However, not everyone has the same capacity regarding that. It's sad, don't you think? But well, it's hard to believe that just by being myself, I have single-handedly achieved such a notorious reputation! I should be worried, shouldn't I? They would probably bring their 'brothers' along to pick a fight with me. But then again, due to several of my observations, most of them have barely more guts than an ant!

My apologies

2005-12-28T14:51:00.000+08:00

I know I flunked up today. I'm sorry =(

This is nuts! I can't even enjoy my last week of holidays because....... there's an exam this friday! Totally fucked up! I mean, it's like I'm in absolutely NO mood to study! *sigh* I hate my life!

Post-Christmas woes

2005-12-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

Went on a post-christmas shopping spree with my mum today (I didn't have much of a choice!) Woah! There are like sales all over the place!

The bright side of going shopping with my mum is that I'll get everything sponsored. Well, almost everything. So, I bought a pair of jeans and a racer-back t-shirt from Topman today. Well, I had to pay for fries' cage myself though *sigh*... Imagine this, you received a hundred bucks yesterday, and you're only left with twenty by the end of the next day *sob*

Saw some familiar faces in town today, including donna (steph's friend and recently, mine) and jamie (my vice captain way back in SA)

Well, that's life! Fries better be thankful!

It's boxing day! Let's see, who's gonna be the first one? Hahahahahha!

Certified!

2005-12-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

a glass of wine

2005-12-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

the transition to christmas day

2005-12-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

Well, I suppose most of you jokers are still awake at this supposedly unearthly hour of 12.35 am, given the fact that it's Christmas day! So first things first, Merry Christmas to all!!! *fireworks, wine, fancy lights*

Christmas is my favourite occassion! And it only comes once a year. So oblige my enthusiasm. =))

I've got a few presents under the tree, which I will open later today. But the best present's currently enjoying herslef in malacca. Steph! I miss you!

I returned from a highly congested, suffocating and sardine-like orchard road about an hour or so ago. Now I'm seriously convinced that S'pore's population needs some major decreasing! But hey, it was an experience after all. Met hell of a lot of people I knew:

-Stepfanie (formerly from holy innocents')
-This cucasian model that I met during the fashion show
-Two random people from MI (sorry guys, I'm not sure of your names)
-Qing Long (formerly from holy innocents' and my ex-classmate)

Probably wouldn't have time to update later today, which is one of the reasons why I'm here now...

It's christmas eve my boys!

2005-12-24T18:40:00.000+08:00

Guess what? Delusional people don't only irritate me, they make me laugh too!

It's christmas eve! One of the best days in the year. And boy am I ready to enjoy myself. Screw all those who do not know how to appreciate christmas. You have no idea what you're missing! =P

Speaking of "missing" in a very different context, I miss her! Yes, I'm talking about steph! She went to malacca this morning and will be back on tuesday. *sigh* Now thanks to her, I can't carry out my "portable mistletoe" idea. *points accusing finger* I'll deal with you when you're back!

I'll be dropping by town later this evening, and I'll be attending midnight church service at midnight (duh!)

All you people at home! Get your asses out and party! I've proclaimed that it's a sin to stay at home today, so move it! xD

when nigel met fries

2005-12-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

Woah! Today so didn't turn out like how I expected! Basically, I expected a pretty normal day. Nothing special and all that. But hey! I'm now a proud owner of a kitten, which I've named "Fries"! I found the little tike around the entrance of MI earlier today. And weirdly enough, a compassionate instinct took over and before I knew it, I was playing around and getting all attached with it. Met steph and we took fries to the vet nearby. It turns out that "he" was suffering from cat flu. Hence, we got some medication and cat food.

It seems that my parents aren't too enthusiastic about this. But well, persuation can do miracles! So I hope it works this time...

Oh yeah, thanks to steph for rushing all the way down. I really appreciate it *hugs*

Seven Months

2005-12-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday:

Met up with steph to watch The Chronicles of Narnia. Honestly, I have absolutely no idea why everyone's so psyched up about the movie! It's just like another Lord of the Rings! But all in all, the movie wasn't that bad, though I felt that most of it was inspired by LOTR, especially the battle scenes.

We headed down to The Balcony at the Heeren after that. It's like so cool! I mean, the drinks, the ambience and all that. =)) We had one lime margarita each, and that was more than enough man! Felt really quesy after that. And boy! I slept like a rock last night. Woah!

Today:

Finally got over and done with the damn presentation in school! And needless to say, it sucked big time! I'm like so pissed off with myself! And if that's not bad enough, I've still got the content page and the bibliography to do! =(

On a more positive note, I met steph (again) today to celebrate our seventh month. We had pastamania at causeway point and walked around a little. Bought her a comic and lent her some cash for her ez link card. Man! Now I've gotta wait a few more days before I can buy my stuff! Just joking darling!

So yeah, that's that.

And I've not forgotten, someone's ass is gonna get fried tomorrow!

two days

2005-12-17T19:03:00.000+08:00

Met up with steph and some of her friends yesterday. We bought each other our respective christmas presents, and I've gotta say, I really like mine! Thanks steph! We had dinner at Marche, and well, I bumped into alessa there, who happened to be having dinner with her friend from australia. The strange thing is that steph was also with one of her friends who also happened to be from australia, and I would be meeting angie tomorrow, who's visiting from australia as well. Woah! One whole lot of coincidences!

Met angie in town at 12pm today. We walked and talked about almost everything: From our present lives to singaporeans. Oh, and when we were having lunch at Fisherios at Ngee Ann City, angie (accidentally) dunked her finger into the tartar sauce, and the puzzled look on her face got me laughing!

Bought angie her christmas present too. Even gave her the liberty of choosing it! hee hee! And I bought a shirt from NUM that I've been eyeing for a while, along with the membership card!

Thanks for the present angie! It's cool...

I'm stessed!

2005-12-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

Oh yes indeed! I am certified as STRESSED OUT! Try my best to mug for the exam tomorrow even as I'm typing away. This is an absolute outrage! It's the first time (apart from the 'O' Levels) that an exam's scheduled to be during the end-of-year holidays! The second module's project is due next wednesday, and it's exam's on the 30th of December! In short, my december holidays have been and will be spent on studying and attending lessons for this really spastic diploma course! What's worse is that I won't even be able to enjoy Christmas with a peaceful, worry-free mind. And when I finally have the opportunity to catch my breath after the 30th, school re-opens a few days later! Damn! This sucks!

Can I have your life?

2005-12-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

Check this -->

- I've got an exam this friday, which I've hardly studied for.

- I've got a project that's due next wednesday, which has hardly gone underway.

- I've got another exam which is two weeks away.

- I'm major stressed out!

- Christmas is like slightly more than a week away.

- My entire December holidays have been and will continue to be spent on attending the STUPID diploma course.

Go figure!

I need a life! Any willing volunteers?

Christmas Shopping part II

2005-12-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

*sigh* Just listening to the song Everything I Do by Bryan Adams brings back memories of the times in St Andrew's. Don't ask me why, it just does. Maybe because I was addicted to that song back then? But well, it still has that soothing effect now. =))

Went christmas shopping with my god-parents today. Bought a pendant from Bits & Pieces and I've got the privilage card too! =) Woah! Shopping for two days in a row! This is fun!

Saw this really cool jacket at Topman. I'll be back for that one ;)

Dropped by G2000 (partially because I've got a $20 voucher for that place), but strangely enough, nothing in particular caught my eye. *sigh*

Angie's arrived in s'pore! And I've arranged an aquaintance with her next saturday. To the rest of the 'gang', inform angie or myself if you guys can make it.

I've got a test coming up this friday! For the first module of my diploma course. Argh!

the sun shines again

2005-12-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah! The light of good fortune shines upon me once again. *evil laughter*

Went christmas shopping with my mum today. Don't start your "mummy's boy" jokes! I mean, look at it this way, I had everything sponsored, so needless to say, I bought quite a number of stuff! *sniggers*

- a belt from Guess (that elusive punk-rockish one I'm been so enthusiastically talking about).
- a pair of earrings from Perlini's Silver
- a chain for my cross pendant from Perlini's Silver
- a table mirror from Feel Good Home @ Takashimaya
- a cusion from Gift A Name

Bought some presents for my relatives too. Don't worry guys! I'll go shopping for friends' presents real soon. ;)

with regards to a test, carolling and my future class

2005-12-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

Had a test for my diploma course today. Shan't say much bout it. Cos I don't know exactly what to expect. So yeah. Actually, I finished it in about half an hour, when the time alloted was an hour. So, it could turn out to be either good or bad. I'm hoping for the former though, cos this is thirty percent of my total marks for this module.

Went for carolling practice after school today. Woah! My vocal cords have been stretched to their max.

Oh yeah, I just found out that I'm going to 05A1 next year! *cheers*

Fashion Extravaganza @ Mox Cafe

2005-12-04T08:30:00.000+08:00

The fashion show at Mox was extravagant! As described by the term "fashion extravaganza". Reached Mox cafe at 4.15pm yesterday (I was like half an hour early!) Well, since I was like the first there, I just sat around and waited for people to arrive (which happened not too long after).
After the lot of us present got aquainted with one another, it was time to get ready. So, there was like hair and make-up artists all over the place to do us up. And man! It's like all of us had undergone some gothic transformation! After that, the lot of us slacked around and chatted. Basically, getting to know one another, exchanging email addresses/business cards, taking pictures, etc.

The show started at twelve midnight (man! that's late!). And the hair & make-up show was one of the first items. It wasn't long before it came to my turn to walk down the runway. So, I put my catwalking skills to the test and did my stuff. Apart from the fact that I walked a little too quickly, they said I was fine. =)) Didn't stay for long after that though as I was like completely peeved. I didn't even use my two free house pour coupons! *sigh* I walked out to the main road, got on a cab, and promptly reached home at 2am (yeah, that's really late) Needless to say, I needed some shut-eye really badly, so it was long before I entered the dimension of dreams...

But all in all, the fashion show was one heck of an experience that I'll remember for some time. And hell, I did enjoy myself!

excited, nervous and anticipating the worst

2005-12-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

Well, that's exactly how I'm feeling right now. The show at Mox is like tomorrow! And woah, I'm already getting butterflies in my stomach!

Was around town earlier. Bought this white and grey shirt from Seed at Tangs. Man! I'm happy! Met steph later to do some of her christmas shopping.

At home now (duh!). And feeling like I've ran a maraton...

crashing NYP at the next level!

2005-12-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

Oh my god! I just crashed the girlfriend's school once again! But woah! I brought it to the next level by attending one of the mass lectures with her! xD

Was kinda nervous that someone in authority would find out though. But my stealth and perfectly-planned plan (about me being from the School of Business) reassured me. Didn't even have to use them, cos apparently, no one told on me! Hahahahahaha!

We met sarah and donna at the fast food area after the lecture ended. Had a chat about star wars, mirrormask and magic the gathering. Man! We're cool people! (and yes, I still wasn't caught!)

It's 1st December today! Twenty-four more days to christmas! And nine days to angie's arrival! Wooo!

a sickening interuption in the middle of my holidays

2005-11-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

Ah, ha! So my diploma in Business Administration course (Yes, I finally remembered what it's called) by Newcastle Education Group has finally started. And woah, listening to the lecturer's for three hours is worse than watching a couple of old men play chinese chess! It's like all of us kept nodding off. Besides, I haven't been sleeping that well lately for some reason.

The last part of today's lesson was pretty interesting. We had to do some sharing on an article we were given. Heard some rather eye-opening comments from some people in the class, and I've just realised that the lecturers from Newcastle Education Group are not the only ones who need to book a session with speech terapists. Man! If every lesson was this interesting, that'll be good!

Officiating six months

2005-11-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Had the official outing to celebrate six months with the girlfriend today. We headed down to fish & co. at suntec for lunch, and boy, the food was indeed good! Not to mention better when eaten on this occassion. *grins* We headed down to the cinema at suntec after that for a movie (harry potter!) but unfortunately, the timing wasn't that suitable. Hence we decided to head down to the GV at marina square to catch it. Same problem there though, so finally, it was decided that we'll watch it next week (clearly, we're pretty last minute people). We headed down to bras basah and later to bugis junction. Had sort of a second lunch at pastamania there. Hmm, salmon and pizza doesn't taste too bad, but I'd still prefer pasta though. =)

Anyway steph, thanks for both gifts! Hope you like mine too! *hugs*

I desperately need a gym session tomorrow! (provided I can wake up on time)

Boy! Time does fly!

2005-11-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving for home today. *sigh* For some reason, this trip seemed to past by pretty quickly. It's like for some reason, time has taken a quantum leap when I'm on holiday. But well, that explains the existence of the phrase "time flies when you're enjoying yourself".

Oh, I bought a pair of much needed formal shoes yesterday. raah!

Happy six months to the girlfriend! It's officially half a year as of now. And I've enjoyed every moment of it. =)) Can't even remember what it was to be single anymore. Love you!

Christmas is slightly more than a month away, and I'm feeling the spirit all around!

As always, the early bird

2005-11-21T11:13:00.000+08:00

Being the (usually) early riser, I woke up at 9.30am today. Considering the fact that I was so bloody exhausted yesterday, this is considered VERY early. xD

Currently at the cyber cafe at genting hotel, and eargerly anticipating another eventful day that awaits in the next few hours. Skipped breakfast and will be having lunch at Kenny Roger's very soon... Muahahahaha!

P.S. Wish you were here.. ;)

don't kill me!

2005-11-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

I've got something to say in response to the girlfriend's post about hoping I won't kill her. I think it's more likely the other way around *looks around suspiciously*

Well, check this -->

- two literature books: York Notes Guide to Jane Austen's Persuation & William Blake's Songs of Innocence & Experience (it's illustrated, and the pictures are sooooo cool!)

- a tuxedo shirt (the shirts with collars that are permanently up), inclusive of a bowtie and a pair of cufflinks

- lunch at Orange Julius. Triple Cheese Hot Dog and a Triple Berry Smootie (seriously, I don't really fancy things in "3s", but heck!)

- dinner at Sushi King (probably) in a short while. I can like smell the unagi from here. Mmmm....

Well, despite all this, yeah. I miss her too. Most dearly.

Better run before she comes around with a craving knife. Don't wanna be a blind mouse!

Oh, and by the way, there's lots more where that came from :P

P.S. Missing you

uneventful days of my life (sort of)

2005-11-18T06:52:00.000+08:00

I know. I know. Long time since I updated yada yada... But well, I'm here once again (please note the unearthly hour once again: 7am)

Life these days has been rather uneventful... Except for meeting the girlfriend on wednesday, helping my mum draft out some letters and going for a casting yesterday. I haven't been doing much worth mentioning. So yeah.

In other news, I'll be overseas from sunday (actually, saturday night) till next tuesday. Namely, the usual place: Genting. It's like only yesterday that I realised I was leaving so soon. Completely slipped my mind for the whole week. =S

Oh yeah, I'll be meeting the girlfriend later. Can't wait!

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2005-11-13T10:30:00.000+08:00

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3ND. *crazy giggles resounds*

(Note: To prevent any given organisations from charging me with cruelty to anima... whoops I mean human beings, I've decided to give you guys a reference key to the above.)

Reference Key To Interpreting Unintelligent Jargon For Dummies (1 copy only and I bet everyone thanked God for that..)

3 - E
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That is all there is to it. Ciao! ^_^ (Note: For those who haven't figured it out yet.. this is hp3t5 in c0ntwrOLL. Hehe.)

(P.S Those who STILL hasn't figured it out.. read hp3t5 backwards.... -_-')

My first self-survey.

2005-11-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

1. Were you named after anyone? Some go-karting champion, according to my dad, which might explain my enthusiasm in that field.

2. Do you believe in destiny? If you're destined for greatness, why not?

3. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope. That's more of a crush or infatuation thing.

4. What's your favourite drink? Tea. Earl Grey to be exact.

5. When was the last time you cried? Honestly, I can't remember.

6. What is your favourite meat? Beef, Fish.

7. What is the most embarrassing CD in your collection? Disney CDs. Their a big contrast to my usual playlists nowadays.

8. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? I see no reason why not.

9. Are you a daredevil? It all depends.

10. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Yeah. But I had a damn good reason for it.

11. How do you release anger? You so don't wanna know this one. *evil grin*

12. Where is your second home? In steph's arms (I know it sounds cliche, but bear with me, it's as honest as it gets).

13. Do you trust others easily? Nope. Trust has to be earned.

14. What was your favourite toy as a child? My lego bricks.

15. What class in school do you think is totally useless?

16. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Oh, no, no, no. How could I possibly? (Now that's sarcasm)

17. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? Nope.

18. What do you look for in a guy/girl? Everything my beloved posesses.

19. Would you bungee jump? If I had the chance, why not?

20. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Nope.

21. Favourite ice cream flavour? Chocolate!

22. What is your least favourite thing? Durians.

23. How many people do you have a crush on right now? One. And it's pretty obvious who it is.

24. What do you miss most right now? Her.

25. What colour underwear are you wearing? White.

26. What are you listening to right now? The sweet rhythmn of the rain tapping against my window *shrugs*

27. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Black.

28. What is the weather like right now? Rainy.

29. Last person you talked to on the phone? Steph.

30. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Fashion sense.

31. Do you like the person that sent you this? Like's an understatement. I love her! *looks at steph*

32. How are you today? Tired.

33. Favourite non alcoholic drink? Earl Grey Tea.

34. Natural hair colour? Black.

35. Eye colour? Dark brown.

36. Wear contacts? Yup.

37. Siblings? One poor excuse for a younger brother.

38. Favourite month? December. Christmas!

39. Favourite food? Pasta!

40. Last movie you watched? Sky High. (Seems like only yesterday. Oh wait! It was yesterday!)

41. Favourite day of the year? 25th December.

42. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? Don't think so.

43. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings. But I wouldn't mind some irony.

44. Summer or winter? Winter! I love snow.

45. Hugs or kisses? Both for her!

46. Do you want your friends to write back? If they promise to be nice.

47. What book/magazine are you reading? Persuasion by Jane Austen. Zzz.

48. What's on your mouse pad? I'm on my laptop. So there isn't a mousepad.

49. Do you regret ever breaking up with someone? Nope. My decision is final almost all the time.

50. Favourite actor/actress? Ralph Fiennes.

Oogie's Revenge rules!

2005-11-08T06:50:00.000+08:00

As always, I'm more or less a morning person (weird huh?), which explains why this entry comes at such an unearthly time of six fifty despite the fact that I'm having my school holidays, and had the choice to sleep in late. Still kinda groggy though. >.<

Spent most of yesterday playing oogie's revenge on the PS2. That game seriously rocks man! (the only spasticated things are that during the boss fights, the characters start singing to each other :S and if you fill up a certain gauge during these battles (by collecting music notes while fighting the bosses), Jack will go "Three, Two, One. Let's dance!" and he'll start doing some ballet-like moves while you push the appropriate keys in sequence to keep him dancing. It apparently damages the boss. :S Plain weird eh? But well, for being the closest thing to a sequel for The Nightmare Before Christmas, oogie's revenge is pretty neat. =))

Anyway, I seriously need to get outta the house! Being cooped up for the whole of yesterday got boring after a while. *sigh*

Rain. Rain.

2005-11-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

Man! It's been raining cats and dogs recently. I'm beginning to think a second Great Flood is gonna happen. But well, it's the rainy season. So yeah, it happens every year...

Beginning to feel the spirit of christmas in the air already. I know it's kinda early and all that but I saw some christmas decorations going up in shopping centres yesterday while I was in town, and that sort of awakened the christmas spirit within me. Moreover, it's my favourite event in the year.

Check this, two public holidays within a week! (Deepavali & Hari Raya) Seriously, they should have such things when school's on. xD

One month without meat!

2005-10-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

Starting from last friday, I went on a "no meat" (beef, chicken, pork) diet. Okay, here's how it came up. I was lamenting to steph about how I'm never gonna clear my promos. In a moment of folly, I said that if I did get to year 2, I would go without beef for a month (I raised the stakes later to "no meat" for a month) *smacks head* Smooth move man! But well, I guess I'll have to honour my word. It's supposed to end on the 28th of November, but since I'll break this abstinence while I'm on holiday (20th-22nd November) I'll have to make u for it when I'm back, so in actual fact, the "abstinence" tentatively ends on 1st December. Woah! That's a challenge! Considering that I need meat in almost all of my meals. But hey, I've still got fish *sticks out tongue*

It's going pretty well so far. Been tempted several times, but successfully resisted ALL of them. *maniacal laughter* I will survive!

To those.

2005-10-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

Through it's the start of the holidays, I'm getting a pretty nostalgic feeling, cos several people are possibly leaving M.I... *sigh* Let me take this opportunity to wish several people who have made my life in M.I an eventful one, all the best in their future endeavours.

To suriani: Hey girl. I know you're sad and all that, but hey, look at this setback as a learning lesson in life. And whatever you're doing next, look at it as a new beginning. The class isn't gonna be the same without you, and you know that we'll miss your outbursts of craziness and stuff. So yeah, and thanks for helping me out with history. It's greatly appreciated. Also, even though you're probably feeling that you didn't give the promos your best, I (and many others) sincerely believe you have. Ask anyone in our class and you'll get the picture =) So anyway, keep up that hardworking and gung-ho spirit in whatever you do next, and you'll be ensured success. =)

To hilmi: I haven't been talking to you for sometime, so I'm not exactly sure of your situation. But I could see lots of effort towards the end. But hey, this isn't the end. You could consider pursuing your music, and eventually make it your career. I mean, anybody could see that you're exceptionally talented in that field, so, make full use of this flair and do what you do best!

To vitz: How time flies man! I still remember the first time we spoke on the mrt, seems like yesterday don't you think? Well, you're one heck of a fun person to be around with, and in my opinion, you've jolted the lives of those around you. Whatever you do next, do it to the best of your ability. And keep that enthusiastic spirit of yours alive! It'll steer you to greater heights. So yeah, I'll miss those crazy attics of yours, like the most recent one in the canteen. Haha... All the best in your future undertakings!

On a more negative note, I have come to a point where I'm forced to believe that enough is enough. I've been pretty silent about stuff (and people) I'm unhappy with, and as such, some of these people have stepped all over me. So let this be a warning. It's the first and probably the last one too.

a victory? or is it?

2005-10-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, so I've cleared my promos. One 'A' level pass (literature), and two 'AO's (history & GP). Yes, I'm happy, and able to go through the coming holidays with a peace of mind. But unfortunately, I've suffered much defeat along with this victory. Don't get me wrong, I'm overjoyed to know that I'll be going to 05A2 next year. It's just that, you know, reality bites at you.

1) I didn't make it into the Students' Council! So much for all the effort to get in.

2) I didn't get selected for the Drama SYF thingy next year!

3) I've realised how many people have actually done so much better than me!

So there you have it. Just a few moments to savour my long-awaited victory, only to be pulled back to the harsh reality of how many defeats I've suffered! =(

one day to judgement

2005-10-25T09:41:00.000+08:00

For those of you who have been keeping track of my nicks on MSN, you should realise that I'm actually counting down to something ominous. Namely the day of my results, which is tomorrow.

Apparently, my current state of mind leaves me unable to enjoy a day off today (it's the promotion excercise, so I don't have to attend school) And some have heard me say this countless times, but for those who haven't, I'll say it again. "I should get my ass out of the house, lest I stay at home and worry myself to death.

And so once again, what happened earlier this year repeats itself. I feel exactly like I did on the day before receiving my 'O' Level results. The anxiety and all that. And just like that actual day, tomorrow could be the be-all or the end-all for me (more chances it'll be the latter though) In such cases, wouldn't you just wish you'd die before that day? Just hoping a bolt of lightning or a crazed murderer would care to accomodate my requests.

It's gonna be difficult to get through this day without going to pieces, and even more difficult for me to maintain my composure tomorrow *sigh*

Fear of the inevitable

2005-10-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

Oh, it's true! That's exactly what I'm going through now. Fearing th erelease of my results next week, and it doesn't help that they're gonna give us tuesday off. Better go out or something on that day, otherwise, I'll worry myself to bits...

Positive note. The SYF auditions went not too badly today. Well, at least I felt I didn't fumble or anything. And no 'newsreader' tone or what nots =P

My days in this world are numbered. To be exact, I've got about four more days to enjoy what's left of my boring, pathetic life, cos everything's probably gonna come crashing down 'avalanche' style on wednesday. *sigh*

Stressed to the brim!

2005-10-19T18:21:00.000+08:00

Blog: You've been neglecting me!
Nigel: Sorry old friend. Been busy lately...

Yeah, that's exactly what's been happening. Well, it's not so much on literally busy but more of mentally. I'm just so not myself these days. It's called post-exam trauma (yes, it does exist), and well, I've got it real bad this time. Though it's kinda a short-term relief to know that I've passed GP by an inch or so, there's still the moderation, which may actually bring my final mark down. =( And of course, there's still the other subjects, which I haven't got a clue about. And the SYF 2006 drama auditions are this friday *shakes head*. If this isn't stress, please enlighten me on what is.